After drifting in the North for ten years, should we escape or ＂die＂？

　　CCTV News (Reporter Chen Xin Wang Yuxi):The recent popularity of a film and television drama has once again attracted the attention of the group of "North drift".

　　In the play, in order to realize his acting dream, the hero came to Beijing with his bare hands, lived in a dark basement, lived on instant noodles and canned food, and ran around every day for an interview with the crew … … However, after ten years down and out, all I got was moving from the basement where I couldn’t see anything to the basement where I could see my feet. The best role I played was just a faceless "lion essence".

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　　The experience of the hero made the audience who followed the drama cry, and the topic in the play # Should I go after drifting in the North for ten years # also appeared on the hot search, which triggered a hot discussion among netizens. Many people who have experienced "drifting north" have also seen their own shadow more or less in it.

　　What can I get for drifting in the North for many years? Did you get ahead? Is there a moment when you want to escape?

　　"From the capsule-youth hostel-basement, I don’t know if I will drift down."

　　Yu Meng, a handsome young man from Xuzhou who has been in Beijing for more than 8 years, is engaged in public welfare activities. He said bluntly that he came to Beijing because he was lovelorn, and it happened that his relatives in Beijing called to let him come, which was an escape.

　　Not long after he arrived in Beijing, the accommodation conditions went downhill: express hotel-space capsule-youth hostel (one room for 10 people)-basement.

　　While staying in the hostel, he enthusiastically told the unfamiliar roommate the computer password on the phone when he was at work, and then he never found his beloved notebook again. Yu Meng, who had no money, had to find a cheap basement to live in.

　　"I haven’t lived in the basement before, but I didn’t know it was wet and damp until I lived there, and there was a musty smell everywhere. Why live in the basement? " Yu Meng said with a wry smile, "I don’t have much money, and I don’t want to ask my family for it."

　　"You can stay in a better hotel when you are on a business trip. As soon as you get back there, you feel like you have fallen from heaven to hell." Loneliness and inferiority crept into his body. Yu Meng once suspected that he had depression. He broke contact with his friends and rarely talked to his colleagues. After work, I always like to "stay" outside a cafe in Joy City. "I don’t want to go back to that boring and lonely place."

　　After getting alopecia areata and losing a piece of hair, Yu Meng decided to move. He found a rental house with a good environmental location, with a monthly rent of 2,000 yuan. After signing the contract and paying a deposit of 5,000 yuan, Yu Meng told his mother the "good news" with joy, but he didn’t want to be drenched with cold water.

　　"My mother didn’t advise me to live in such an expensive house and advised me to eat more bitterness. After all, I still have to pay back the mortgage of that house in my hometown, and I have to get more than 2,000 yuan a month, and my salary is not enough. " After calling, Yu Meng cried bitterly for a few minutes.

　　However, what made Yu Meng collapse even more was that he met a black intermediary, and the deposit finally hit Shui Piao. Yu Meng didn’t want to find another house, and continued to live in the basement for more than a year.

　　"Fortunately, I am a Xiaoqiang who can’t be killed. I survived that difficult time."

　　Today, Yu Meng lives in a clean and tidy shared room of more than 10 square meters, with a monthly rent of more than 2,000 yuan. The residential environment is good and it is close to the place where he goes to work.

　　In Yu Meng’s view, Beijing is a place that people love and hate.

　　"In recent years, my horizons have broadened a lot, and my living standards have improved, but my happiness is not high and I have no sense of belonging. I don’t know if I will continue to drift. If you are busy, you will forget the rest; Once I am free, I feel ‘ Empty, lonely and cold ’ . I have thought about fleeing and returning to my parents and brothers many times, but I am not willing. If there are no more people or things in Beijing that make me worth staying, I will go back to Nanjing to start a business. After all, I am closer to home. "

　　"Beijing is like a ‘ Love rat ’ I gave it my best youth, but it refused to give me a home. "

　　In her fifth year in Beijing, 28-year-old Li Meng sent a message to her mother: I want to quit my job and go home!

　　She felt that she was pushed to the limit by her work.

　　Appear bleary-eyed in the crowd at the morning rush hour of the subway every day. It takes an hour and a half to get to the unit by changing the subway three times and taking two bus stops. Waiting for her, there are endless planning cases and PPT. When there is a big event, it is normal to work overtime all night.

　　"I feel that my body and mind have been devastated." Li Meng said.

　　And let Li Meng made up his mind to go home, it is more than 12 o’clock one night, Li Meng was awakened by a hard knock on the door and asked who it was. No one answered, but he knocked harder and twisted the doorknob from time to time. Li Meng felt that her brain was blank. She ran to the kitchen and got a kitchen knife, and called 110. "I don’t know how long it took. The knock on the door outside the house stopped, and the property sent someone. I didn’t find anything unusual. They said that someone might be drunk and admit the wrong door."　 　

　　Li Meng never fell asleep again, and stayed alone in the studio of the old residential area outside the Fifth Ring Road, waiting for dawn. "It’s nice to turn to my friends in my hometown to bask in my children and husband, and they laugh so happily! Look at me again, poor thing! "

　　Early the next morning, she knocked down the WeChat that fled Beijing.

　　"At that time, I felt that Beijing was like a ‘ Love rat ’ I gave it my best youth, but it refused to give me a home. " Li Meng can’t remember where she saw this sentence, but she felt that she spoke her inner feelings very accurately.

　　However, Li Meng returned to his hometown in Northeast China for six months, but failed.

　　In my hometown, I can go to all places within an hour, and there are few people on the street after 9 pm. There are no endless exhibitions, plays and lectures, but there are many relatives and classmates who take pleasure in comparing with others. "In their eyes, they are not married at the age of 27 or 28; Do not want to take an examination of public institutions and civil servants; Get married and don’t have children. Think about Dink … … These behaviors are heterogeneous. "

　　Li Meng also tried to work in an Internet company in her hometown for two months, but she found that the employees’ overall business level was not high, and everyone’s ideas were conservative. They were used to the fast-paced working life in Beijing, but they didn’t adapt to it when they went home.

　　"Although Beijing has abused me thousands of times, I can only treat it like first love. After all, it really gave me an experience and vision that my hometown could not give. "

　　During these years in Beijing, Li Meng likes to go to the Film Archive and livehouse when he is free.

　　In this way, Li Meng once again returned to Beijing. She interviewed a large-scale real estate company to do event planning, and most of her team were young people. "The atmosphere here is more relaxed and free, you can meet people who used to only see in the news, and you often have the opportunity to go abroad for business trips. Such platforms and resources are unattainable in their hometown. "

　　Drawing lessons from previous renting, Li Meng "collected" a roommate online. The two girls rented a small two-bedroom apartment together. Although the monthly rent is twice as expensive, the community is new, with 24-hour security and safety.

　　Now, Li Meng, who has been drifting in the North for eight years, feels that she is more mature than before. "Difficulties always have to be experienced. In Beijing, more blood and tears mean more growth. I feel that my horizons are more open. My horizons are not the same as going to high-end places, using high-end products and living a luxurious life. Instead, I have the opportunity to contact the world more, embrace the world, and gain mature and diversified thinking. Perspective, critical thinking, and strong empathy are more important to me. "

　　"I was in debt for 300 thousand in the second year of my work, but I never thought of leaving Beijing."

　　Darren Liu, a young town man from Sichuan, made up his mind very early that he must go to Beijing in the future. "When I was very young, my parents went out to work, and only my grandfather took me at home. At that time, my grandfather told me that if I went to Beijing to study, I would be able to get ahead."

　　It is said that the harder you work, the luckier you will be. Darren Liu was admitted to a well-known university in the capital as he wished. Before graduating from university, he got a postgraduate degree. At the age of 24, he worked in the financial system and got a Beijing hukou more smoothly.

　　"When I got my hukou, I felt that I was finally going to get a foothold in Beijing. At that time, the house price had not risen. I figured how I could get a down payment on the house in a few years." However, it wasn’t long before Darren Liu found that the house seemed to be too late for him to save money to buy.

　　"When I went to work one day, a message popped up on the Internet saying that the average house price in Beijing’s Fifth Ring Road had reached 30,000. My first reaction at that time was that this was false news." Although he was dubious about the news, Darren Liu immediately made an appointment with a real estate agent. After work that day, he hurried to see the house.

　　Three months later, Darren Liu selected a small apartment outside the South Fourth Ring Road with a down payment of 500,000 yuan. My parents in my hometown took out all the savings of 200 thousand, but it was a far cry from it. Darren Liu had to bite the bullet and borrow from his colleagues, predecessors and leaders. The taste of borrowing money is not good, but Darren Liu can only do this: "If I miss this opportunity, I will never want to buy a house in Beijing in my life."

　　In the second year of work, 25-year-old Darren Liu was burdened with a foreign debt of 300,000 yuan, providing a monthly mortgage of nearly 10,000 yuan. This once "other people’s children" lived in Beijing with extra anxiety: working overtime desperately to change their performance, for fear that they would be eliminated by work if they relaxed; Rent a small bedroom of seven or eight square meters, and there is basically no extra space outside the bed; There is not a penny left, and when it is the most "bleak", you have to find one yuan and fifty cents in the piggy bank to collect lunch money; I don’t go out on weekends and holidays, and I have been rejected by my girlfriend for being stingy, boring and uninterested for countless times.

　　"Who doesn’t want to live a quality life, but you can’t be fake and exquisite without money." Although helpless, Darren Liu understands that it is not easy for a child who lives in a foreign country and has an ordinary family to really establish himself in Beijing. However, the thought of harvest, Darren Liu still feel particularly hopeful.

　　Darren Liu said that the happiest thing when renting a house is that his girlfriend will cook him a simple lunch on weekends.

　　In 2019, it was the 13th year that Liu Di came to Beijing. At the age of 31, he moved to a new unit and his salary tripled. Married his girlfriend and moved into a new home. For so many years of living in the North drift, Darren Liu said: "Although it is very hard, I have never given up. If I hadn’t stayed here, I wouldn’t have forced myself to grow up so fast. Stay in Beijing, but I feel practical. "

　　Darren Liu always disliked that the word "drifting north" was endowed with too much "desolation". "Beijing, though bigger and more crowded than other cities, also means more opportunities and more choices. The world of adults is not easy anywhere. drifting north is just a choice of life. Since you choose this life, you have to bear all the things it gives you. " (At the request of the interviewee, all the articles are pseudonyms.)